mixed cd from my ex

cassette from my ex book cover

I read this funny book, stories from people about mixed tape they got from their ex. It’s like chicken soup but with no moral to learn, just that relationship fade and mixed tape stays.

I remember, back in high school I made one for my ex too. I forgot the song but he got me one too. I remember so much about him, my ex boyfriend. I was 16 and he was waaaay older than me. (save to say, I dated him behind my parents back). Not only he was older, he’s in a band (the kind where the vocalist doesn’t sound like singing, but screaming with anger to the world) he plays lead guitar, the band was kinda popular (I didn’t know this until we were going out and he said the band already had four albums), he had a tattoo, piercing (ears and yes, tongue).

I skipped my private lesson just to hang with him, upsetting my parents, got huge fight with my mom, and spent my teenage years loving him.

He is smart and love to read (he gave Sartre for my birthday) and always managed successfully to make me laugh. He knew I hate his music, and he just laughs when I pointed that out. We were two totally different person, but we’re connected. I don’t know what he saw in me and vice versa, because I knew this relationship wasn’t going to last, I love him even more. We used to take a walk, and talk. We met and then talk. I got home and then we talk on the phone some more. I never get bored.

But that was it. Maybe at some point he realized I’m just a girl and he is a man. We broke up on my first year in college. And like a young girl with broken heart, I cry and cry and then mad at him. Now he’s married and I’m happy for him.

Because of the book, I look at my cd rack, all dusty, and found one of his mixed cd he gave me. I think when he made the cd, he try hard to put songs I will like. And I did. I really appreciate the effort and that is why I think so much about him. The relationship ended bad and I ended hating him, but the years I go out with him I know he really cares.

CD one (I lost CD number two) :

1. How I Miss You – Foo Fighters

2. I’ll Miss You – Frente

3. Kiss Me -Sixpence None The Richer

4. King of Pain -Alanis Morisette

5.What I Am – Edie Brickel

6.Lover’s Rock – Sade

7. Whatever We Imagine – James Ingram

8. Commercial for Levi – Placebo

9. I forget the tittle and the artist

10. Forever Young – Alphaville

11. Somebody – Depeche Mode

12. Long and Lasting Love – Glenn Medeiros

13.Somebody (originally by depeche mode,sang by a woman which  again, I forget)

14. Shellshock – New Order


erased from history

kemarin gua baru beli majalah NatGeo di Cikapundung (this is my heaven for imported mags, I bought NatGeo for 20.000 rupiah, while on the bookstore it cost almost 80.000), anyway I always save the best piece for last, and that piece for this month NatGeo is the story of Hathshepsut.

gua selalu suka dengan sejarah, terutama dengan romansa di baliknya.. hohoho. cerita ini tentang seorang wanita pertama dalam sejarah mesir kuno yang bertindak sebagai raja (pharaoh). Hathshepsut seharusnya nggak jadi raja, walaupun dalam dirinya mengalir darah biru dari raja-raja sebelumnya. Tetapi karena suaminya (yang saat itu adalah raja Thutmose II) meninggal karena serangan jantung dan pewaris tahta, Thutmose III, anak tiri Hathshepsut, masih terlalu kecil, (Thutmose II dan Hathshepsut punya anak perempuan, sementara pewaris tahta harus anak laki-laki, walaupun anak selir), maka Hathshepsut memegang kekuasaan.

wajarnya, begitu Thutmose III dewasa, maka Hathshepsut harus memberikan tahta kepadanya. tetapi entah kenapa, Hathshepsut terus memegang kekuasaan, dan Thutmose III menjadi semacam wakilnya, selama 21 tahun. ahli sejarah Egypt banyak berspekulasi mengenai mengapa ini terjadi, apakah karena Hathshepsut menginginkan kekuasaan? atau karena dalam dirinya mengalir darah biru yang asli? atau karena dia memang memimpin lebih baik?

anyway, spekulasi itu masih terus menjadi spekulasi. Tapi, selama masa 21 tahun kekuasaannya, Hathshepsut banyak membuat bangunan hebat. Sepertinya, karena takut ia dilupakan, Hathshepsut mengukir sebuah kata-kata pada sebuah Obelisk di Karnak, “Now my heart turns this way and that, as I think what the people will say. Those who see my monuments in years to come,and who shall speak of what I have done.”

Ketika Hathshepsut meninggal (diperkirakana karena diabetes), Thutmose III akhirnya memegang tahta. Entah karena benci pada ibu tirinya atau alasan politik, Thutmose menghapuskan Hathshepsut dari sejarah. Tulisannya di Obelisk di tutup oleh batu (yang malah merupakan keuntungan, karena kondisinya terjaga baik hingga sekarang), menambal gambar-gambar Hathshepsut sebagai raja dengan batu, bahkan menukar muminya.

selama beberapa dekade, ahli sejahrawan mencari-cari pharaoh yang hilang ini. Ketika ditemukan mummy Hatshepsut sama sekali tidak mengenakan baju kerajaan, perhiasaan atau bahkan diperlakukan layaknya bangsawan. yang membuatnya berbeda adalah pose tangannya yang tertekuk di dada, merupakan ciri dari pose para ratu. Tetapi tidak ada yang dapat membuktikan bahwa ini adalah Hathsepsut, apalagi ada 2 mummy yang bernamakan Hathsepsut.

Setiap mummy yang di awetkan, organ-organ tubuhnya disimpan dalam guci. pada guci liver Hathshepsut, terdapat sepotong gigi. Rupanya para embalmer pada jaman itu, memasukkan gigi hathshepsut yang tanggal ke dalam guci berisi liver-nya. Karena gigi itulah, parah ahli akhirnya dapat mencocokkan dengan mummy Hathsepsut.

akhirnya Pharaoh yang hilang, she-king dari jaman Mesir Kuno ditemukan. oh, and did you know, she wielded more power than two ancient Egyptian women, Cleopatra and Nefertiti.

Anyway, it is more interesting if you read the story on NatGeo April 2009 issue, written by Chip Brown