Feed your fear

The first time I started watching this series, I had a little doubt. Would this Hannibal be as good as Anthony Hopkins’ Hannibal? I must say, I can’t picture Hannibal and not see Hopkins as the character. Mads Mikkelsen is Hannibal, and I don’t know whether it is the tone of the series, the high-pitched soundtrack, the brutality of the scenes, the dialogs between the actors, the philosophies spoken, the beauty of Hannibal’s cooking, but this Hannibal is definitely not Anthony Hopkins’.

It is still the same, but I didn’t picture Hopkins at all when Mikkelsen is on screen. Although based on Thomas Harris, ‘Red Dragon’, there are still some differences. For instead, Freddy Lounds is a woman in the series, and Will Graham is way more disturbed than the one in the movie. All in all, I enjoyed this series (just finished watching the second season) although some fans might have objections of the plot, but they are still okay for me.

note: I fast forwarded some of the scenes because they were way too disturbing. so, probably not for the faint hearted. But I enjoyed every scenes when Hannibal cooked, in a weird way, they made me hungry!! They were just beautiful!


the book business

a photo shoot for Alice’s Adventure in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll, illustrated by Helen Oxenbury



I know selling books, especially if you are the owner of a small, indie bookshop, is though. Several times I lay awake at night, stare at the dark ceiling and wonder another way out of another new maze. Like it or not, I have found myself lost in mazes. It’s been over a year since I started my small online bookstore, and the mazes I have gone through are countless (sometimes I had to detour the same problems – amazingly they led to different exit!).

I can always sit and give up, but I enjoy it so much I don’t want to stop. I know this might take forever, but because I think it’s important to look back and count your accomplishment, no matter how small it is, I feel that I already carry out so many miniscule goals (I don’t care, they are still my goals!).

Just like my solo journey to Japan, where I don’t have anyone but me, I made new friends along the way, this happens too on my journey in book business. I have met lots of wonderful people who support me along the way. My customers who are nice enough to keep me up to date with their little ones’ reading habit, my distributors who are extra nice to hold books for me until I can pay for them, people on instagram, young talented illustrators that willing to do some project with the bookstore *excited* and many more. I feel, in a way, a bit braver.

For that, I thank my little bookshop. Probably not the biggest and the best bookstore ever (not yet!), but it certainly makes me feel I’m a better person!

about being alone

When I told my boyfriend that I was going to Japan, he told me to go alone. He insisted that there are certain things that you can only experience when you are traveling alone. I didn’t mind and probably because it was Japan, I wasn’tl worried too much. After all, I have my sister in Tokyo.

So, yeah, I bought my JR Pass, booked my dorms and hostels, packed my carrier and armed by my new second hand Nikon. I was ready to embrace new things alone. Some people are not into traveling alone, but after this trip, I realize I’m not that kind of people. I loved every minute of it.

I met new people, I spoke new phrases in a new language (ohayo gosaimasitaaaaaa), I saw new places, I tried new food, but I have to say the best of all was I had freedom. I could feel it when I stood next to Yayoi Kusama’s pumpkin facing the grey sea, I could feel it when I walked under the gates up in the mountain in Koyasan, I could feel it when the view outside my window on Shinkansen became blurry. Everything felt so light.

I left my country with so many things in my mind. Before I left, I told myself that this could be a good opportunity to think things over. But when I was there, all I wanted was not thinking about anything, because I felt that there isn’t a problem too big if I could stop and enjoy the view in front of me.

I love this quote from Albert Einstein:

“The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.”